Today i sent this message to some of my closest friends from home:

okay so i was just thinking about this and felt like telling you all
but after going to mountain school so many people were talking about how much they didnt want to go home to their old schools and their old friends
and how when they did get home it was so hard
they felt fake around all their friends and no longer fit in or saw the point in hanging out with them
and i just wanted to say that i came back and remembered absolutely how much i love you all and how much i love our school. all the teachers were so welcoming back to me
and all of you were so welcoming!
you are all such interesting people who are honest and true and real and not fake at all and fun and talented and smart!!
so basically the point of this message is to tell you how amazing you all are. i guess im really lucky to be able to come back to people like you

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part of me is so happy that i have this back home. it's definitely not the same as the mountain school or the connection i have with all of you. but i feel like i have a group of friends who can be real.

then a part of me feels like i should have had a harder transition back...

sure i cried strait through the first few days

but im actually happy now -- even though i have many moments when im missing the mountain school and being able to see all of you