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At this moment I am drunk. I admit it. And im happy, but sad because the people i was just wit i am only happy with when im drunk. i miss you guys, and i miss feeling so close to people completely sober. my ears are ringing. you are the greatest, because i met you, was awkward with you, and loved you... so wonderfully.y.

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I miss you guys, and I just want to apologize for not being as open as I could have been this semester. I

old thoughts and new ideas

I'm bored, so I'm going to go through the drafts of old posts and publish them at some undetermined frequency. Some are finished thoughts, some are blank titles. Anyways enjoy.

reality

The last few months have been pretty tough on me. I know many of you guys have limited experience in this, but my parents are having a really hard time paying for college. Enough so that I know I will never be sure come summer time each year that I will be able to go back to school. To have my future decided on something as ludicrous as MONEY and not on my work ethic or ability is entirely new to me. I don’t know how to be or act. I find I haven’t talked to anyone from college this summer yet, mostly because I’m scared I’ll never see them again. How do people live with this uncertainty? Because, this is a revelation to me, the vast majority of people do. I look back at the person I was at tms and I see who I can be, what I can do without this major obstacle. Imagine what we could do as a human race if everyone had that freedom.

I’ve stopped buying organic milk. I know that it is better, but regular milk is a dollar cheaper and I can’t bring myself to insist upon it. I can’t make the choices I want to make. I wish that I could be the person I was at tms, but I am coming to realize that was a utopian environment. Can you be realistic and a dreamer?

Even after two years of not seeing most of you, you are still some of my greatest friends in the world. I love you all.