you guys are just awesome.

Up until this point, every day before my high school graduation has felt the same. Last day of classes? Just another day. Turned in my senior project? Just another day. I have not felt the finality of everything until this afternoon, when I noticed this slow uneasiness in my gut. I think I'm really going to miss what friends I have here. More than that, I'm just going to miss the school. Well, this is to be expected when you've been attending the same place for over thirteen years.

Going to the Mountain School was a leap of faith, but I knew that I had Milton as a constant behind it. I knew it existed as a home away from the home away from home that was Vershire, TMS, and Miles. Wooster isn't like that. Milton isn't going to be a home anymore. Come August, I won't be a resident there anymore. I'll be an Ohioan. OHIO. I'm going to have to choose a place to live after that. I'll always have my parents as a final fallback, but soon it's going to be just me. I've wanted this, I won't lie. But at the same time, it won't feel real until it's happening. And, knowing me, once it's happening, it'll be the only reality I can know.
What I need to do is remind myself of everywhere I've been and how far I've come. I see where I am, and pretty much just that. If I give myself perspective, then I think I will be able to appreciate what I have more.

I've been eyeing this unfinished draft for a while. No activity so I wonder if people want to think on this and post their own endings in the comments.

I lost it today. I was talking to a teacher that I'm close to about leaving for college next fall and

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SbKGsEK_T9g

I put my library on shuffle and this song popped up - I didn't even know I had it. Someone sang it at a coffeehouse, right? Tobold? I don't remember but it made me happy.

Thinking of you all (but not longing for the past). To quote one of the comments in a previous post, listen and 'Be Happy'.

i miss you guys. i find that i am inspired by so many of the things that are said on this blog and i just wanted everyone to know that i feel so lucky to know each of you.

hello, friends.
i keep wondering how much this matters, this contact, this desperate attempt to hold ourselves together and maintain a semblance of community. it's nice, i admit, to search the blog and read about what some else is thinking. but i don't have that same longing when i check it, anymore. i don't want to be back at mountain school and frankly i don't want to abandon everything to run away to the woods with you all. what i do want is to maintain the self i made at mountain school. you all are part of that but i know i have to let you go. mountain school gave me a better, more authentic, more honest me. it gave me friends, yes, but more important than that it taught me that i could find friends--amazing friends--anywhere. you all mean so much to me so don't look at this as a break-up. you all were my first loves, and we always hold fast to those in our hearts, but i have no desire to linger on what we had, what was past. we are all moving out, up, and on. let me go, i'll let you go to, and we'll watch each other walk away.

come on guys lets step it up. i really dont want this thing to die, its such a great way to stay connected and it really doesnt take that long to write something and i dont know about the rest of you but i love finding new posts on the blog. it just makes my day that much better, ya know?