I know we agreed not to bond over hating home. I don't hate home. It just sucks a lot right now. Can't wait till New Years...
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Today in Bio class, my teacher noticed that I was rushing around, knocking things over and seeming generally flustered. "Is everything okay?" He asked. I was taken aback. I don't know him at all, but this is the first time anyone from home had asked about "feelings" since like the dawn of time, unlike at TMS when it is a regular topic of conversation. I managed an "Absolutely! I'm just slow, you know that!" but everything is NOT okay. I am failing math. I have like three friends, only one of whom I actually like. I have no impetus to do anything at all except make money, weirdly. My college counselor listed all the reasons I am not going to get into college, and TMS was one of them. My life is filled with irrational people. I miss you guys all so much.
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my college counselor told me I should seriously consider University of Kansas...i mean i know i dont have straight A's but...really? I feel your pain - I got a D on my first Calc test and when i confronted my friend about why she has been ditching me all this year she said, "like you ditched me last semester". whatta cunt!
ReplyDeleteI think it's interesting that your bio teacher was the first one to ask about feelings; I've gotten the "how are you" comment from so many teachers, and I've given them all the same answer: "tired and kinda stressed, but okay." There's only one teacher who I feel genuinely cared because he asked on a day that I was blatantly not myself, but even then, I shrugged it off and pretended everything was fine.
ReplyDeleteWhy in the world would TMS be a reason for you not to get into college?? If anything, it proves that you can live without your parents and function perfectly normally... plus, it's something different than everyone else has done.
I miss you too... sending lots of love your way.
WHAT THE HELL YOU'RE NOT GETTING INTO COLLEGE?????????????? OH. MY. GOD.
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so i don't even know who exactly you are but let me tell you something right now. YOU ARE GOING TO COLLEGE. AND YOU ARE GOING TO A GREAT ONE. IF YOU ARE ANY ONE OF MY 44 BEST FRIENDS FROM THIS SEMESTER, YOU ARE A TALENTED BEAUTIFUL FRIENDLY EXQUISITELY HUMAN GENIUS AND IF I RAN A COLLEGE I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO HAVE YOU GO!!! and omg for chrissake dont worry about tms, tms is an amazing thing and guess what, there are only 89 other possible candidates who could possibly apply to the college you want to go to from our year and i will bet anything not every one from f09 and s10 is applying to the same college. that makes you incredibly special. and guess what? im not doing great in calc either! but you cant let that get you down! you can only do as much as you can possibly do. call one of the teachers at tms. write them. call us. everyone will tell you the same thing. i LOVE you. it will be okay.
p.s. is it not ok to bond over hating home? cuz i have totally been doing lots of that