homesick

I just had some friends over. We had a lot of fun and I felt special to have such great friends, but once they left, I immediately went onto the computer and looked at mountain school stuff. I looked at the new album on the tms website of the new semester and I just burst into tears. I haven't cried in a little while about mountain school. I guess it was necessary, like a cleansing thing. I really just don't know how to be ok with not living there anymore. I feel so incomplete. I can distract myself with temporary hapiness from home, but it is not the same. nothing is the same as what it was there. I miss everyone so much, and I know we all feel the same way, but I also feel like I just haven't been home in the longest time. in this new album, there is a birds eye view picture of mtn school and I saw the path from the academic building up to my dorm; a path that i walked so many times and brings back the most vivid memories. These memories make me so happy but so empty becuase I just know that I'll never get to recreate them. I just wish we were back there, loving eachother