hello, friends.
i keep wondering how much this matters, this contact, this desperate attempt to hold ourselves together and maintain a semblance of community. it's nice, i admit, to search the blog and read about what some else is thinking. but i don't have that same longing when i check it, anymore. i don't want to be back at mountain school and frankly i don't want to abandon everything to run away to the woods with you all. what i do want is to maintain the self i made at mountain school. you all are part of that but i know i have to let you go. mountain school gave me a better, more authentic, more honest me. it gave me friends, yes, but more important than that it taught me that i could find friends--amazing friends--anywhere. you all mean so much to me so don't look at this as a break-up. you all were my first loves, and we always hold fast to those in our hearts, but i have no desire to linger on what we had, what was past. we are all moving out, up, and on. let me go, i'll let you go to, and we'll watch each other walk away.
The first time I read this I was sad and confused about what was being said, but now I realize that this person has reached something of a conclusion I personally had reached a long time ago—we are never going back to TMS and we shouldn't try to hold on to the life we had there, but embrace the lives we lead where ever we are.
ReplyDeleteTo the writer: although we must walk away I hope we can again look into each others eyes and appreciate what we had and what we have. Never forget to remember your past in your definition of yourself.
i think anything that can make you smile is worth something; reminisce with me whenever you want :)
ReplyDeletealso, the comment before this one made feel better about this post. it's okay to look back and embrace (not linger on) something that has changed you...
i'm still confused, but i feel like i stand in a position that will be ready to hug you in case you ever feel the need to walk back and i'm comfortable with that. BE HAPPY
yesss if there was a like button for blogs i would like the comment before this one
ReplyDeleteI like all of these posts especially when the first person said, "Never forget to remember your past in your definition of yourself." You will always be a part of us and I agree that your conclusion that we are not going back is a good one. We must take the people we were at TMS and the things we learned and move on. Not forget. Not deny, but move forward and be open to the fact that other places can give us wonderful experiences as well!
ReplyDeleteBe at peace and know that we love you enough to let you walk away and we'll still love you when you want to come back.