I know this problem may sound trivial, but it has gotten to the point where I'm actually upset with my friends. My friends never take mountain school seriously and whenever i mention it, they ALWAYS make fun of me and say "this one time, at the mountain school..."
Yeah, it's not that big of a deal and they're just joking and I thought it was funny at first, but it just happened like multiple times in one day, and I didn't even bring up TMS! it just seems like they are trying to find things to make fun of me. I don't really know how to explain it but it's now pretty upsetting and I can't tell them anything about my experience there or how I feel without them rolling their eyes.
I just want them to understand but they refuse to even try. I probably didn't help with this because I do talk about it a lot but not so much anymore, which is why I am so annoyed with the fact that, all of a sudden, they are bugging me about it again.
I can't confront them about it without sounding like a sensitive bitch. I just don't want to talk to them anymore. I honestly thought I was pretty solid with my friends... and now I'm not so sure. I mean, I don't hate them of course, and yeah it's important to keep in mind that it's trivial- and i don't even know why I'm writing so much about this! but it just bugs me and you guys are the only ones who understand- or even possibly care...
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i know exactly how you feel. ive kinda given up talking about tms around some of my friends, they dont get it and most of the time they dont care. i mean its their loss, just remember that 44 people always have your back
ReplyDeletethank you!!
ReplyDeleteI just returned from Guatemala and I'd like to share with you my thoughts on the time after a meaningful trip, or in our case TMS.
ReplyDeleteAfter a trip it is always hard to put into words exact what happened. The immediate raw emotions are gone and we are left with the glow of these emotions. Forced to forget the lows that gave us highs. Forced to capture ephemeral moments in static vignettes.
In my opinion your friends are not trying to hurt you, but are jealous. This also seems more like a accumulation of aggravating factors then one isolated event. Remember that it wasn't always easy to be around everyone at TMS. We worked hard together to make a cohesive group by letting each other know where we stand on sensitive social issues, like the one you are dealing with now.
By the way I don't think you are a sensitive bitch if you let them know how you feel, but a strong thoughtful person. I must say that I have also felt this way more then once this year.
well said. ya i never really thought about some of my friends being jealous but it makes sense. we have a pretty unique connection with 44 other people and i know that most of my friends at home dont have that.
ReplyDeleteive had the same problem. they constantly make fun of my when i bring it up, literally interrupting me with animal noises or the name nigel over and over again. it can be so frustrating, and sometimes it makes me feel like they are forcing me to disconnect and forget how i felt there. but dont let em!! i now only bring it up when im one on one with someone, theyre more apt to listen.
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