The last few months have been pretty tough on me. I know
many of you guys have limited experience in this, but my parents are having a really hard time paying for college. Enough so that I know I will never be sure come
summer time each year that I will be able to go back to school. To have my
future decided on something as ludicrous as MONEY and not on my work ethic or
ability is entirely new to me. I don’t know how to be or act. I find I haven’t
talked to anyone from college this summer yet, mostly because I’m scared I’ll
never see them again. How do people live with this uncertainty? Because, this
is a revelation to me, the vast majority of people do. I look back at the
person I was at tms and I see who I can be, what I can do without this major
obstacle. Imagine what we could do as a human race if everyone had that
freedom.
I’ve stopped buying organic milk. I know that it is better,
but regular milk is a dollar cheaper and I can’t bring myself to insist upon
it. I can’t make the choices I want to make. I wish that I could be the person
I was at tms, but I am coming to realize that was a utopian environment. Can
you be realistic and a dreamer?
Even after two years of not seeing most of you, you are
still some of my greatest friends in the world. I love you all.
Keep strong. We are here for you. Money won't define your future you will. Life is about how you live it.
ReplyDeleteTry to enjoy yourself and have some fun. Don't ignore your friends just because you might need to take some time off from school.
yo,
ReplyDeleteImagine feeling free & finding peace with your reality as it stands. I get caught up on this a lot, almost daily while I'm at school- is happiness a choice? I don't know the answer yet, but there's something utterly beautiful about this struggle.
You have more than money- give what you have, and I have a really good feeling that you will receive. Show the world that your love & care is too real to be locked up by a lack of money (as the comment before this one also says).
I know it's tough and can be incredibly discouraging- like when can I get a break? When can I have some fun and not have to worry so much about my own/the world's problems? For me, the answer is usually never. Maybe you & I will always dream- and by dreaming, you & I are growing.
and maybe happiness is a choice.
love you!
peace