distant

When we left Mountain School, we knew that we would try our hardest to stay in touch and preserve the love that we found in each other. I feared that the distance between us would weaken what we found at the mountain school. But my biggest fear was that because i am so far away from most of the semester, I would be forgotten. I know that this is a little self centered... but lately I can't help but feel like it is coming true. I know that we all try really hard to write letters and call or skype or whatever, but the actual act of being together is something I can't let go of. I haven't seen anyone from Mountain School since the beginning of June, since I left the campus really. It has been way too long and while I'm home missing everyone so much, the people who live close to each other are getting together - in New York, Boston, Vermont! I love you guys so much and I am so happy that you guys are happy, but I can't help but be selfish and resent the fact that I don't get to be apart of this hapiness. I didn't want to be forgotten, and although I may be breifly brought up in a conversation while others are getting together or thought of while sharing a story, I am still not there and that is so hard for me. I don't want to be forgotten just because I live far away from everyone, it hurts too much just to thinking about it.